May 2015 was a manic whirlwind. I flew from NY to Seoul, to Melbourne, to Sydney, to Dubai to Paris, to Cannes, then back to NY. This all in 24 days. I worked every day except four. I'm sure girls fly and work as much as I do, if not more, but this...was definitely a tough one.
We shot this story straight after Chanel Cruise show in Seoul. I was in bad shape, with insomnia and terrible stomach ache, and I had a call time the next morning at 6AM. I don't even remember much except trying not to cry because I was so ill. And especially because the photographer was so nice and enthusiastic about being in Seoul and capturing great moments...I felt disappointed in myself for being incapable of performing. That is the worst place for your mind to be. When you start spiraling down the self-loathing, self-pity hole, shit gets really dark and it's hard to control the situation. I try to avoid going there altogether, except when I'm over-exhausted--I get very emotional.
for M Le Magazine du Monde photographed by Pari Dukovic, styled by Yasmine Eslami.
Makeup by Gregoris Pyrpylis
Icarus was a character, a name
Chasing the sun, boy you are the same
9 am there and 9 am again
Some cryptic myth a puzzle of refrain
And time it meant nothing
To a traveller for the time being
Shuttled in a capsule of a thing
Where everything felt the same
And they even knew your name